i texted alex tonight and said i wasn't going to give the baby up for adoption. and then he wanted me to get online to talk. (when he says, "why you weren't on it," he's talking about my birth control. which i did not lie about by the way. i accidently messed it up and didn't tell him, which isn't a lie. it's just as bad, but i don't want anyone thinking i just told him i was on it and actually wasn't. it was an honest mess up.)
razors85: how long or many years do i have to take care of it?
HawaiianPunch 00: until it's 18
razors85: why that long?
razors85: why not until its a todler?
HawaiianPunch 00: bc that's how long you'd have to pay child support
razors85: so how come what i want has never happened yet?
razors85: but everything u want has happened?
HawaiianPunch 00: me being pregnant has gone my way, everything before hand went your way
HawaiianPunch 00: so i don't want to hear you whine
razors85: oh really
razors85: apparently not
razors85: cause if it did then this wouldnt have happened
razors85: this all could have been avoided
razors85: all u had to say is hey im not on it so yea thought id let u know
razors85: but no
razors85: didnt even bother
razors85: now u threaten me about doing stuff
razors85: fuck my life up
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm not threatening you
razors85: then make me do shit that u want
razors85: u have before
razors85: dont even tell me u havent
razors85: u told me that u could take care of it by urself cause ur friend doesnt make that guy pay
razors85: or do anything
razors85: so why not me?
razors85: why are u doing this to me
razors85: u know i dont want to do anything with this
razors85: why cant u respect that
razors85: why cant u just keep ur word
razors85: u said ur friend is doign fine
razors85: on her own
razors85: u probalby will too
razors85: i cant do this
HawaiianPunch 00: ok i don't know what friend you're talking about
razors85: u told me that someone u know had a kid and the dad didnt want to do anything with it and she RESPECTED that wish from him and kept her word and now shes doing fine
razors85: yes u told me on the phone
HawaiianPunch 00: i talked about a girl who has the guy pay 600 a month
HawaiianPunch 00: but she doesn't take care of her kid either
razors85: not morgan
razors85: before that
razors85: like a month or two
razors85: when u said u could take care of it cause u dont want me around if i dont care
razors85: so i said ok
razors85: that lasted 3 weeks
razors85: before that u told me that someone u knew had a kid and the girl was fine on her own
razors85: he didnt have to pay support at all or anything
razors85: so why are u tearing me apart?
razors85: do u enjoy it?
HawaiianPunch 00: the only other girl i know with a kid, the dad is in jail
razors85: cause i really think u do
razors85: for what?
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't know
razors85: thats not the one u told me
razors85: so is that a lie then?
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't know what you're talking about
HawaiianPunch 00: who
HawaiianPunch 00: what girl
razors85: u never told me her name
razors85: u jsut said a girl u know
razors85: this was when my parents found out
razors85: so now ur going to drag me down with u
razors85: im not going to be a good dad like this
razors85: cause i never wanted this
razors85: but u cant respect that or anything
razors85: its about u and the kid
razors85: thast all
razors85: and u told me that were in this together
razors85: no thats a lie
razors85: if we were then both our wishes would happen
razors85: all of urs ahve
razors85: none of mine have
razors85: NONE
razors85: dont tell me they have
razors85: thats bullshit
razors85: and u know it
HawaiianPunch 00: are you done now?
razors85: for now
razors85: wait
razors85: if i was to pay then thats around 7200 dollars a year ok
razors85: i dont have that kinda money
razors85: that means i couldnt go to school
razors85: till 18 is around 129ish
razors85: 129000
razors85: k
razors85: now seeing if every now and then would be very very hard for me
razors85: cause i need to keep making money so i can go to school
razors85: and get a job afterwards
razors85: but ur tearing that down
razors85: and u dont care
razors85: u say u do but if u did then u would leave me alone
razors85: and keep ur word
razors85: u really dont need me and u know u dont cause u said u know what to do and yes u said those words. u want to bring me down and suffer
razors85: u want to try and change my feeligns and its not working
razors85: it will never work
HawaiianPunch 00: now are you done?
razors85: yes
razors85: but
razors85: does any of that matter
razors85: what i just said?
razors85: and be honest
razors85: cause i really dont think it does
HawaiianPunch 00: well if you'd stop talking i can go back and read it all
razors85: go ahead
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't even know what you want me to say
razors85: i want u to keep ur word that u told me a while ago
razors85: that ud leave me alone and that u could do this by urself
razors85: but see that wont happen because nothing ive wanted has happened yet
razors85: u think about it.... but u dont see it how i see it which is where we'll be
HawaiianPunch 00: i wanted us to date, you didn't. that happened
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't want to sneak in basements in the middle of the night to hook up. you did. that happened
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't want an abortion
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't want adoption
HawaiianPunch 00: there, we're even
razors85: i didnt want to even come close to sex without birth control.... that didnt happen
razors85: no were not even
razors85: u didnt keep ur word
razors85: that happened
razors85: not what i wanted
HawaiianPunch 00: what about back in april when you said you'd date me
HawaiianPunch 00: you broke your promise
razors85: first of all id never promise anyone that id date them
razors85: ever
razors85: so idk why u think i said that but believe me i would never say that
razors85: in a million years
razors85: i couldnt promise somethign liek that
HawaiianPunch 00: ok let's say you didn't promise
razors85: and u wanna know why i didnt
HawaiianPunch 00: you still said it
HawaiianPunch 00: and you still got your way
razors85: why i didnt is because i didnt liek ur morals
razors85: i didnt like most things about u
razors85: cause u got pissy real fast
razors85: about stupid shit
razors85: u talked about things i didnt want to talk about
razors85: dont ask me what they were
HawaiianPunch 00: that's a real good reason not to date someone
HawaiianPunch 00: and why didn't you say something. i would have stopped
razors85: u woulda gotten pissed
HawaiianPunch 00: on
razors85: i bet u anything u would have
HawaiianPunch 00: no*
HawaiianPunch 00: i've talked about those things with plenty of guys
HawaiianPunch 00: and every boy i've dated
razors85: uve dumped
HawaiianPunch 00: has told me to chill
HawaiianPunch 00: and i've done it
HawaiianPunch 00: no. i've been dumped. and got my heart broken in the mean time
razors85: yeah
HawaiianPunch 00: what i'm saying, is that i work with people ic are about
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't say f you for not liking me
razors85: and people told me u had sex with kirk and braggeda bout it
HawaiianPunch 00: i change the things i can change
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't have sex with kirk
HawaiianPunch 00: i touched his dick. woo hoo
razors85: not what people said
razors85: but u knw what
HawaiianPunch 00: ask kirk
razors85: i wont believe them
HawaiianPunch 00: ask him if we did
razors85: all i want. this is the only thing im asking for, but it probably wont happen, but i jsut want to be left alone forever. im not going to be a good parent if i dont want to do this and u know that.
razors85: i cant do it for 18 years
HawaiianPunch 00: you do things if you WANT to. i've noticed that pattern
HawaiianPunch 00: and if you don't want to, hell with even trying
HawaiianPunch 00: you're good when you want to be
razors85: u wanna know my schedule
HawaiianPunch 00: no
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't
razors85: yeah cause its busy as fuck
razors85: i can barely do stuff i wanna do
HawaiianPunch 00: yet you're looking for a gf
razors85: i havent done somethign for myself since this happened
HawaiianPunch 00: thought you were TOO BUSY ALEX
razors85: thats when lax was after school
razors85: its before school now
razors85: who told u that?
HawaiianPunch 00: that's the one thing i hated you for the most
HawaiianPunch 00: you could look at me
HawaiianPunch 00: and make me belive you were way too busy for me
razors85: did angel tell u that?
HawaiianPunch 00: then go date other girls
HawaiianPunch 00: makes SO MUCH sense
HawaiianPunch 00: you're telling me you're too busy for our baby
razors85: i dated emily cause lax was almost over
HawaiianPunch 00: but now you want another gf?
razors85: yeah
razors85: i do want one
razors85: whats wrong with that?
HawaiianPunch 00: nothing
razors85: WTF
HawaiianPunch 00: except all this time you don't have time for
razors85: u jsut made a huge deal outta it
HawaiianPunch 00: you're telling me
HawaiianPunch 00: you don't have time to be a good dad
HawaiianPunch 00: but you have time to date someone
razors85: has it been born yet?
razors85: that what i thought
HawaiianPunch 00: in less than 6 months it will be
razors85: sweet
HawaiianPunch 00: do you plan on dumping her when it gets here
HawaiianPunch 00: i doubt it
razors85: idk how long a relationshipt will last
razors85: idk what im doing tomorrow
HawaiianPunch 00: with you proably not long
razors85: i live life day by day
razors85: my longest has been 5 months
razors85: both have
razors85: the first one i got cheated on 5 times
razors85: 5 FUCKING TIMES
HawaiianPunch 00: i thought amanda was your only gf
razors85: the first one was when i ws in 5th grade
razors85: and yes amanda was my fist love
razors85: first*
razors85: and im glad she was
razors85: ive never said i love u to another girl since then
razors85: if i have its been as like a friend love
razors85: so dont u even fuckign think i cant go long with a gf
razors85: me and amanda broke up for stupid reasons
razors85: so what... let me take a wild guess. that away message that u have is from my facebook message to angel
razors85: ccause thats the only way u wouldve known
razors85: so now u both are making fun of me
razors85: and u want me to take care of this kid
razors85: but u do this
HawaiianPunch 00: ok
HawaiianPunch 00: angel and i
HawaiianPunch 00: talk about plenty of other things besides you
razors85: why do u talk about me?
razors85: theres no reason to
razors85: besides to make urself feel good
HawaiianPunch 00: we both enjoyed listening to you sound so desperate for a girl
razors85: im not desparate
HawaiianPunch 00: when at one point, you could have had either one of us
razors85: yeah i know
razors85: peopel fuck up
razors85: tahts why were humans
HawaiianPunch 00: no doubt
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't blame you for wanting a gf, you think i don't want to a boyfriend? i was never happier than when i was in love with kirk
HawaiianPunch 00: and i would love to have that again.
HawaiianPunch 00: but it's not a good time for me
HawaiianPunch 00: honestly, who wants to date a pregnant girl
razors85: u coulda avoided that
razors85: but now ur bringing me down
razors85: for something i never wanted
razors85: and u knew it
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't want it either
razors85: then why couldnt u have fucking told me that u were on it
razors85: huh
HawaiianPunch 00: why didn't you tell me you couldn't use a frickin condom
razors85: it wsa fine
HawaiianPunch 00: no it wasn't
razors85: ur bc fucked it up
HawaiianPunch 00: obviously it wasn't
razors85: condoms dont stop everthign
HawaiianPunch 00: neither does birth control
razors85: ur blaming this whole thign on me
HawaiianPunch 00: no it's both of us
razors85: u said bc was more reliable than a condom
HawaiianPunch 00: not by much
razors85: u said a condom was like 97 percent and bc was like 99.9
razors85: thats a lot when it comes to this
razors85: if u would have told me that u werent on it... i never would have put it on
razors85: and i put it on right
razors85: id fucking know cause it was on me
razors85: not u
HawaiianPunch 00: i was afriad to tell you i wasn't
razors85: cause u wanted sex
HawaiianPunch 00: no
razors85: whats the reason then?
razors85: theres no other reason
razors85: if u would have respected my feelings then u wouldve told me
razors85: but u didnt
HawaiianPunch 00: ok well sence you already think you know everything, there's no reason for me to explain
razors85: u have nothign to explain
razors85: its over and now im fucked
razors85: cause its only ur way
HawaiianPunch 00: i played your stupid game for 7 months
HawaiianPunch 00: I came to YOU when you said so
HawaiianPunch 00: don't frickin tell me that you have never gotten what you wanted
razors85: thats 7 months ago
razors85: u always relate thigns to that
razors85: thought u said u were over it
razors85: or did u lie to me about that too?
HawaiianPunch 00: bc you made me believe something very different was going on
razors85: so did u
razors85: except urs was fuckign huge
razors85: and ruined my life
HawaiianPunch 00: see, i relate everything to march when you made me actually believe that you cared
HawaiianPunch 00: and you relate everything to my birth control
razors85: i did care
razors85: my feelings changed
HawaiianPunch 00: no you didn't
razors85: just liek urs i guess huh
razors85: oh since u know exactly what i feel
razors85: yeah good one cheif
HawaiianPunch 00: you just said mine did
HawaiianPunch 00: an dyou don't know how i felt or feel right now
HawaiianPunch 00: so don't talk
razors85: hahahaha
razors85: good one
razors85: u cant even keep ur word
razors85: so dotn talk shit to me
HawaiianPunch 00: neither can you
razors85: why not?
razors85: ive kept my word
razors85: ive said everything that ive wanted
HawaiianPunch 00: i think you're the one that enjoys all of this
razors85: now u turn people against me and talk about me behind my back
razors85: really
razors85: my life fuckgin sucks right now
razors85: if urs did then ud stop all of this
razors85: but u dont
razors85: cause u like to talk shit about people u dont liek
HawaiianPunch 00: i can't stop anything
razors85: which is fuckign sick
HawaiianPunch 00: what i want won't ever happen
razors85: i hate people like that
razors85: apparently it has to
razors85: cause i have to do something for the kid when i dont want to
razors85: cause i never wanted it to
razors85: an bc and an condom together means no baby
HawaiianPunch 00: i hate you for the ways you make me feel
razors85: good
razors85: same to u
HawaiianPunch 00: you can't hurt someone that doesn't care
razors85: why not?
razors85: says who
razors85: u cant say that cause u do care
HawaiianPunch 00: i meant you
HawaiianPunch 00: of couse i care
HawaiianPunch 00: i hate myself for caring, but i can't help it
razors85: i know u meant me
razors85: thats why i aimed it towards me
razors85: ashley i hate being liek this
razors85: watch it walk first, and talk first. then u could give it to adoption. ur going to bring me down too
razors85: unless u let me go and respect my wish
razors85: thats all i ask
razors85: is that u leave me outta this
razors85: thats the only thing i want in the world right now
HawaiianPunch 00: stop saying that
razors85: no
razors85: see it doesnt matter what i say
razors85: see why im so fuckign pissed?
razors85: and u and ur friends think its funny
HawaiianPunch 00: really, if nothing matters, why am i crying?
HawaiianPunch 00: it's not funny
razors85: like i can see u crying
HawaiianPunch 00: you didn't notice when i cried in your basement either
HawaiianPunch 00: you don't notice alot of things
razors85: if its not funny then why is me wanting a gf funny to u two?
razors85: cause maybe i couldnt see
razors85: or u didnt show it
razors85: if i saw u crying then i wouldve held u
razors85: im nto that fuckign mean
HawaiianPunch 00: no
razors85: yes i wouldve
HawaiianPunch 00: you asked if i wanted a tissue
razors85: dont fuckign say i woudlnt
HawaiianPunch 00: bc you heard me sniffing
razors85: i thought u had a stuffy nose
HawaiianPunch 00: that suddenly just happened
razors85: sorry i wsa wrong
razors85: usually i have a stuffy nose before i go to bed
razors85: almost every night
razors85: my nose gets stuffy
razors85: amandas does that too
razors85: so im not the only one
razors85: im not making this shit up
HawaiianPunch 00: you are so obsessed
razors85: no just me and her have a lot im common
razors85: im sorry for not forgeting my first love
razors85: and u did the same for kirk
HawaiianPunch 00: i will always love that boy
razors85: well
razors85: ill always love amanda
razors85: and u act liek its a bad thing
HawaiianPunch 00: do i talk about kirks nose
razors85: no it just reminded me cause i havre a good memory
razors85: sorry for having a good memory
razors85: my bad
HawaiianPunch 00: don't be such a jerk
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't say you had to be sorry
razors85: u implied it
razors85: that it was a bad thing to know this stuff
HawaiianPunch 00: no
HawaiianPunch 00: i know little things about all my ex's too
HawaiianPunch 00: that are pretty stupid to remember
razors85: ok
razors85: so why cant u just keep ur word to me and let me go on with what i want to do
razors85: ur keepign me from things i wanna do
HawaiianPunch 00: don't play victim
HawaiianPunch 00: i can't do anything i want to do either
razors85: u have so far
razors85: that ive seen
razors85: for us
razors85: see ur not letting me do what i want
razors85: this isnt fair at all
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't get to do what i want either
HawaiianPunch 00: i can't say that enough
razors85: havent showed it
razors85: or told me
HawaiianPunch 00: there's a lot of things i don't say
razors85: i jsut wanna know why u cant just let me go with what i wanna do and let me be?
razors85: why is that so hard to respect?
HawaiianPunch 00: you need to quit actling like youre 12
HawaiianPunch 00: your kid needs you whether you like it or not
razors85: u need to start keeping what u say
razors85: theres plenty of kids out there who dont have a dad and are fine
HawaiianPunch 00: and i'm not going to let my kid be one of them
razors85: see its about u
HawaiianPunch 00: it's about our baby
HawaiianPunch 00: YOUR BABY
HawaiianPunch 00: you don't get it do you?
razors85: no i get it
razors85: but i knwo what i want
HawaiianPunch 00: then you wouldn't want your kid out there without you
HawaiianPunch 00: if you were a good person
HawaiianPunch 00: a good dad
HawaiianPunch 00: you would want to help your kid
razors85: guess im not
HawaiianPunch 00: you better learn
razors85: why?
razors85: whyyyyyyyy are u such a bitch to me
razors85: ur so fuckign mean
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm not being a bitch
razors85: and u dont even see that u are
razors85: yes u are
razors85: its alla bout u
razors85: dont say its not
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm not thinking about me
razors85: cause it is
razors85: its right out int he open
HawaiianPunch 00: i can't believe a person can care so little about their own kid
razors85: thats being human
razors85: people are like that
HawaiianPunch 00: no
HawaiianPunch 00: being human
HawaiianPunch 00: and being a dad
HawaiianPunch 00: is doing anything for your kid
HawaiianPunch 00: not trying any way they can to get rid of it
HawaiianPunch 00: you're pathetic
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't even know what to say to that
razors85: no u see thats ur view of it
razors85: i cant change how u look at it
HawaiianPunch 00: and all of your friends
HawaiianPunch 00: everyone thinks you're such a fucking bastard for what you're doing to your kid
HawaiianPunch 00: YOUR BEST FRIENDS
HawaiianPunch 00: you have no idea
razors85: oh so u did lie to me again
razors85: see the thing is that i knew u were still talking shit about me
HawaiianPunch 00: no
razors85: cause erica told me
HawaiianPunch 00: your friends find out
HawaiianPunch 00: and ask me
razors85: really now
razors85: lol
HawaiianPunch 00: wtf is going on. so i tell them. and i ask them every time. please don't judge him for this.
razors85: thats funny cause i dont talk about this
HawaiianPunch 00: they hear it
razors85: how can they hear it when i dont talk about it to anyone?
razors85: u dont make sense
HawaiianPunch 00: the school
HawaiianPunch 00: people know you said
razors85: what i said like 2 months ago
razors85: so yeah they change it up
razors85: see now ur probably goin to tell them what i say
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't tell your friends anything
HawaiianPunch 00: if they believe you, i don't blame them
HawaiianPunch 00: they're your friends, not mine
razors85: well i dont talk about this to anybody
razors85: so idk where ur getting this stuff
HawaiianPunch 00: i hear it
HawaiianPunch 00: some is probably true
HawaiianPunch 00: some probably isn't
HawaiianPunch 00: just like everything in life
razors85: probably
razors85: and see i know whats probaly going to happen
razors85: if i do get a gf
razors85: some of ur friends are going to decide, hey lets make his life go to hell and theyll say shit to her
razors85: which idk if u know this but u really dont wanna see me pissed
razors85: it takes a lot to get me to that
razors85: but i dont really feel much pain when im pissed
razors85: and its been a long time since i have
razors85: and since im a lot bigger now
razors85: u really dont wanna do that
razors85: cause if that does happen
HawaiianPunch 00: are you gonna beat me up or something.
razors85: ill make u and ur friends lives a fuckign shit hole
razors85: and dont think i cant
razors85: no im not gonna hit a girl
razors85: unless its my little sis and its a joke
razors85: we joke punch
HawaiianPunch 00: then what does you being big have anything to do with it
razors85: its hard to stop me
razors85: from doign stuff
HawaiianPunch 00: you hurt me, it goes straight to the baby
HawaiianPunch 00: an di'll have to kill you
razors85: really
razors85: ud really have the guts to kill me
razors85: id wanna see that
razors85: but no thats not what i mean
razors85: like ur feelings and everything
razors85: will go to shit
razors85: ill fuck with everything
HawaiianPunch 00: you make me feel like shit enough
razors85: same to u
HawaiianPunch 00: again
HawaiianPunch 00: you can't hurt someone that doesn't care
razors85: and again u keep thinking that
razors85: i know how i feel
razors85: and obviiously u dont
razors85: and obviously u dont care
HawaiianPunch 00: i care more than i'm willing to admit
razors85: doesnt show one bit
HawaiianPunch 00: bc there's no reason
razors85: ill take care it was much as i can for as long as i can
HawaiianPunch 00: what would be the point in me telling you how i feel
razors85: but im goign to bed
razors85: i hate this
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't like it either
razors85: whatev
HawaiianPunch 00: don't whatever me
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm being serious
razors85: dont u even fuckign tell me what to do
razors85: who the hell do tu think u are
HawaiianPunch 00: why do you freak out
razors85: cause u think u have me how u want me
razors85: down to what u want
HawaiianPunch 00: it's not what i want
HawaiianPunch 00: it's what your child needs
razors85: again u keep thinking that
HawaiianPunch 00: it is
HawaiianPunch 00: i want you to care about your kid. and love it enough to want it
HawaiianPunch 00: i want you to actually give a damn about me
HawaiianPunch 00: neither is going to happen
HawaiianPunch 00: people think otherwise, and that's when i laugh.
razors85: right so why dont u jsut let me go?
razors85: other people dont matter in this
HawaiianPunch 00: bc for some reason
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't think you honestly want nothing to do with your kid
razors85: no i dont want anyting to do
razors85: cause i never wanted this
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't either!
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm sick of you thinking the baby is to blame
razors85: i dont blame it
HawaiianPunch 00: then why do you freaking hate them so much
razors85: no i love kids
HawaiianPunch 00: just not your own?
razors85: just not one when im 18
HawaiianPunch 00: what if you get married, and something happens, and you can't have kids.
HawaiianPunch 00: and you lost the only kid you could ever have
razors85: ill adopt
HawaiianPunch 00: some kid whose dad didn't want them either?
razors85: yep
razors85: my friend chads liek that
razors85: he knows his real parents
razors85: and therye all fine
razors85: doesnt really talk to them
razors85: but hes fine with that
HawaiianPunch 00: i can't spend 9 months growing with my own child and give them up
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm not strong enough
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm so attached
razors85: cause u dont take control
razors85: u let ur emotions take control
HawaiianPunch 00: being pregnant is a very emotional thing
razors85: i bet
HawaiianPunch 00: the baby is capable of sleeping, SLEEPING
razors85: idk what its like so it probalby is
razors85: cool
HawaiianPunch 00: it's 4 inches long and it sleeps and is awake
HawaiianPunch 00: and if you shine a flashligh on my belly, the baby would look away from it
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm so attached
razors85: ashley i dont care
razors85: im sorry
HawaiianPunch 00: how can you not care
razors85: cause i never wanted it
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't either!
HawaiianPunch 00: but it's happeneing
razors85: cause a lie made it happen
HawaiianPunch 00: you can dwell on that all you want
razors85: how do u think itll feel when it asks u how it wsa made... what are u gonna say
razors85: u cant dwell on the truth
razors85: how do u think itll feel when u say oh i lied to ur dad
razors85: and u were a mistake
HawaiianPunch 00: i think it will be greatful i took care of my own "lie"
razors85: ever think of that?
HawaiianPunch 00: and i didn't just pass it off on someoe else
razors85: really now
razors85: i doubt it
HawaiianPunch 00: ok
razors85: cause u cant make it feel a certain way
HawaiianPunch 00: how do you think the baby is going to feel when i tell them yes i made a mistake, and daddy was too much of a pussy to take care of you
HawaiianPunch 00: he ran off bc he didn't love you
razors85: hahahah
HawaiianPunch 00: he didn't even give a damn
razors85: too bad i cant run off
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm sure they will be rally thrilled to hear that
HawaiianPunch 00: you want to
razors85: well thats two diff things
razors85: u should probably think befor u talk
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm still not giving him or her up
razors85: oh i know
razors85: and i stil lhave no choice
HawaiianPunch 00: you have a choice on how you raise it
HawaiianPunch 00: if you treat them like just another chore you don't want to do, that's for you to do
HawaiianPunch 00: if you want to actually deal with what's happening, and be the best you can be, that's up to you
razors85: i know
HawaiianPunch 00: i find out january 9th if it's a boy or girl. and believe me, i'll be caling you
HawaiianPunch 00: and i'd like to think maybe that would sink in
HawaiianPunch 00: but i doubt it
razors85: yep
razors85: it wont
HawaiianPunch 00: you're awful
razors85: so are u
HawaiianPunch 00: maybe to you
HawaiianPunch 00: cry and get over it
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm doing what i need for my baby
HawaiianPunch 00: you're doing what you need to do for you
HawaiianPunch 00: selfish
razors85: u cant even keep ur word lol
HawaiianPunch 00: stop
HawaiianPunch 00: get over it
razors85: u get over it then
HawaiianPunch 00: what am i getting over
razors85: what i want
HawaiianPunch 00: you're not getting away
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm sorry
razors85: cause ur not gonna change how i feel
razors85: lol
razors85: cause u cant keep ur word cause ur a selfish bitch
razors85: cause u dont care
razors85: ill take care of it as much as i can and when i can. theres no guarentee when i can and cant
razors85: i cant fix that
razors85: im sorry
HawaiianPunch 00: how am i selfish
razors85: i dont feel like explaining
razors85: cause it wouldnt matter
HawaiianPunch 00: bc you got nothing
HawaiianPunch 00: my entire body ENTIRE BODY is so messed up
HawaiianPunch 00: and it will continue to be messed up until even after i have it
razors85: my entire life is messed up
HawaiianPunch 00: o wow
razors85: good for u
razors85: u coulda avoided this
razors85: lol
HawaiianPunch 00: stop saying lol
HawaiianPunch 00: youre driving me nuts
razors85: no
razors85: ill pass thanks though for the offer
HawaiianPunch 00: see
HawaiianPunch 00: you want this to be a fight
razors85: no
razors85: i want to go
razors85: i have to get up in 5and a half hours
HawaiianPunch 00: you're not being held here
razors85: well u know what i said before then
razors85: ill take care of it when i can and forever how long i can
razors85: theres not promise here
HawaiianPunch 00: nice try
razors85: suck it up
razors85: its life
HawaiianPunch 00: you suck it up
razors85: im good
HawaiianPunch 00: when you're home from college you have your baby
HawaiianPunch 00: end of story
razors85: really now
HawaiianPunch 00: if you have to work, ok, i'll take it
HawaiianPunch 00: but when you're done, it's yours for the rest of the night
HawaiianPunch 00: and until you go back to work
razors85: hahaha
razors85: who says im goign to do this/
HawaiianPunch 00: then givve me 600 dollars every month
HawaiianPunch 00: the law says this
razors85: lol
razors85: see its about what u want
HawaiianPunch 00: it's about the fact that you're going to be in your kids life
HawaiianPunch 00: bc that's what's best for the kid
HawaiianPunch 00: and i'm sick of you thinking it's ok to get me pregnant and laugh it off
razors85: and its what u want
HawaiianPunch 00: and try everything you can to get rid of it
razors85: really i love how u think its ok to lie to someone so u can have sex u sick fuck
razors85: and now im trying everythign so it doesnt screw up our lives
HawaiianPunch 00: i didn't lie to have sex with you
razors85: oh really now
razors85: u knew i didnt want tdo unless u wer on it
razors85: and u werent
razors85: so u didnt etell me
razors85: so u lied
HawaiianPunch 00: you can't just expect to ignore me and have the baby disappear
razors85: cause i told u to tell me if u werent on it
HawaiianPunch 00: you're going to be a dad no matter how much you try to run
razors85: oh i know
razors85: unless someting goes wrong
HawaiianPunch 00: no i meant even if you didn't pay and didn't take care of it
HawaiianPunch 00: it's always yours
razors85: yeah i know
razors85: but none of those are gonan happen
razors85: cause its about u and it
HawaiianPunch 00: it's about the baby
HawaiianPunch 00: i dont' want to be stuck with you or your family for the next 18 years
HawaiianPunch 00: and even after that
razors85: oh there will be no after that
HawaiianPunch 00: when they get married
HawaiianPunch 00: have kids
razors85: ok?
HawaiianPunch 00: unless you plan on never talking to them after they turn 18
HawaiianPunch 00: i doubt you can spend 18 years taking care of your own child, and not care
HawaiianPunch 00: i don't believe you
razors85: u dont ahve to
razors85: idk what im doing yet
HawaiianPunch 00: you can act like a toughass that doesn't care
HawaiianPunch 00: but i think if you saw the things i've seen, you'd care
HawaiianPunch 00: or when you hold that baby, you'll care
razors85: mabye i will
razors85: maybe i wont
razors85: idk yet
HawaiianPunch 00: i think you know you will
razors85: liek i said i live live day by day
HawaiianPunch 00: you're not that bad of a person
razors85: oh thanks
HawaiianPunch 00: and if you are, you've had me completely fooled
HawaiianPunch 00: but really, i think you'll be surprised how much you'll end up caring
razors85: no
razors85: if i do... id still hate u
HawaiianPunch 00: thanks
razors85: anytime
HawaiianPunch 00: you really don't have any real reasons to hate me
HawaiianPunch 00: except i didn't do what you want
HawaiianPunch 00: wow
HawaiianPunch 00: tough luck
razors85: no i do
razors85: its my choice to tell u them or not
razors85: and i choose not to
razors85: so u can believe me or u cant
razors85: i dont care
razors85: cause i know and u dont
HawaiianPunch 00: i wouldnt get an abortion
HawaiianPunch 00: i wont give it up
HawaiianPunch 00: i wont let you just walk around
HawaiianPunch 00: good reasons
HawaiianPunch 00: really
HawaiianPunch 00: bc i didn't tell you i messed up my birth control. i bet thats number 1
HawaiianPunch 00: i'm a selfish bitch
HawaiianPunch 00: which is funny, considering everything i'm doing is for the wellbeing of this child
razors85: u can say whatever u want
razors85: i knw what they are
HawaiianPunch 00: ooooooook then
razors85: bye
HawaiianPunch 00: o you'll be hearing from me
HawaiianPunch 00: and i hope soon you can quit making everything such a fight
razors85: lol
HawaiianPunch 00: alex
razors85: bye
HawaiianPunch 00: quit
HawaiianPunch 00: being
HawaiianPunch 00: like this
razors85: hahaha funny cause ur makign me liek this
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